I Can Love Myself this Way

ReflectionThis afternoon I sat staring at the reflection of the 40 year old woman who is me. Lines. I saw lines. Around my mouth, between my brows, across my forehead. Where did they come from? How do they seem to grow deeper by the day? When did I become so old? Botox. Maybe that’s what I need. I was covering the gray today; why not hide everything else that reveals my aging body?

The judgement stopped me. I thought of my mom. With locks of lovely spun silver. Crevices around her mouth from which laughter spills. Crinkles surrounding her eyes deep with love. Wrinkles trolling across a forehead embracing a mind of intelligence and wisdom.

Kiss Your Own fingertipsI look like my mom. I look like the beauty who bore me. I am becoming the woman who never has tried to be anyone or anything else.

So it is. I can love myself this way. I WILL love myself this way. I’ll look at this image with tenderness and grace. I’ll ask gently for the preoccupations with perfection to be lifted.
I’ll practice loving you, as you are and as you will be, I said to myself and smiled.

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Published by kpropst

Dr. Kori Propst is the Wellness Director and Vice President of The Diet Doc, LLC. She has earned a bachelor’s degree in exercise physiology, a master of science in counseling, and a doctorate in health psychology and behavioral medicine. Her education is enhanced by certifications in personal training, health coaching, mindfulness meditation, & lifestyle and weight-management consulting. She is also an ISSN (International Society of Sports Nutrition) clinician. The Diet Doc’s lifestyle based programming encourages individuals to adopt an approach of structured flexibility. With encouragement and the science of motivation built into every step of the process, clients adapt their behaviors and mindsets to facilitate safe, effective, and enduring health practices. Their individual metabolisms, lifestyles, food preferences, health conditions, activity levels, goals, and daily schedules are keys to developing their personal plans for success that can stand the test of time. Kori specializes in nutrition and weight loss consulting incorporating a flexible approach and customized programming, physical and mental training, mind-body integration, optimal athletic performance, eating psychology and emotional eating coaching, mindset and peak performance coaching, and overall well-being. Kori is one of a few athletes who have earned professional status in all three divisions of Bodybuilding, Figure, and Fit Body within the World Natural Bodybuilding Federation. She has also been a runner-up at the WNBF World Championships twice, and has earned pro titles at the Mid-America Pro-Am and the Pro-Cup in Sacramento. Now an avid road cyclist Kori can be found among the hills of North County! Published in the Journal of Nutrition and various community magazines, Kori serves on the advisory board for Oxygen Women’s Fitness magazine, is a contributing writer for UltraFitness magazine, is an avid blog writer, teaches at national camps and retreats, and provides international webinars. Kori coauthored 50 Days to Your Best Life with The Diet Doc founder, Dr. Joe Klemczewski in 2014 and has a new book in the works about the threats to self-determination of individuals pursuing nutrition goals. The Diet Doc programming, including a sophisticated digital resource system for clients blazes a trail for permanent success by simultaneously addressing the necessity of having flexible options while still employing a structure that will help accelerate body fat loss and optimal performance.

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